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Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Truth-Telling & Self-Uncovery

Truth-Telling & Self-Uncovery
In our currently imaged human world, we have all internalized to equate femininity with softness, softness with weakness, weakness with less-privilegedness, and less-privilegedness with suffering.
... and we all have been taught to want to escape suffering, at all costs, as a human condition.

You can easily make a slave out of a human being by manipulating fear of randomness, fear of scarcity, and cosmic angst, but once a slave, only she or he can free self.

The many confined ways in which we have constructed "manhood" give implicit permission for "men" and "boys" to be sexually violent towards women, girls, and just plainly to aggressively demean anything in other men that's perceived as remotely "feminine."

One can respect someone, something, or one of the many ways of being in our human world without also being engaged in the celebration of, out of principle and a lived morality.

Just maybe therapy is NOT for everyone, for it is about truth-telling, but absolutely NOT to the therapist, but indeed to oneself, which makes therapy in deeds a most scary proposition to some, who are not ready, yet, to be shedding their total armor, piece by piece.

A therapist is in deeds a professional witness to her patients' self-discovery or self-uncovery.

Humor: Is the patient's self-uncovery still bona fide, if her therapist is not present?

Hollywood serves as, both subtly and overtly, a propagandist machine for the U.S.'s way of living life; therefore, its male perpetrators of sexual violence are given carte blanche to commit crimes against the less-valued of our society, women and "effeminate" men.

There are and will always be collateral victims to living with national borders; the price is high to maintain such otherness.

The wondrous cycle of death followed by new birth in nature is sublimely perennial.
I welcome thee, Fall, once again!

When you are running on gasoline, NOT rocket fuel, and try to reach for the stars and moon, you will definitely fall back to earthly ground with maximum speed and momentum, thus gravitational pull.

Emotional hijacking is leaning way too much on another, for you don't want to accept, thus be fully responsible for, the choices you have made and their reciprocal consequences.

To the unwise, the truth is ONLY relevant, when it is their own subjectively twisted ideas of it.

Death is the end of the cycle of births, decays, and rebirths on the cellular level.

If I were to reincarnate in another universe, where music or something comparable didn't exist, I would categorically reject such form of mine, as quickly as possible.

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Untransmuted Shame & Agency

Untransmuted Shame & Agency
You can always tell when folks are mired in a cesspool of SHAME, for they live with so many secrets, and guard their secrets with a wall of nastiness couched as privacy!

Shame and intimacy shall never, ever cross paths!

Untransmuted shame will, does remove any shred of responsibility, ownership, and authenticity out of any of our human lives.

Human life is NOT an intricate puzzle, but a cosmically sacred mystery.

Our robust fear of death is learned, for death is only a scary unknown, when life is lived unwisely and foolishly enough to attempt to make death, for mainly we're unaware of how to transmute our cosmic angst, a separate experience or event from life.

Believing that you "don't have choices or any choice" at any point along your individual life's journey is always a credible sign of living in a deep well of shame, where the light of responsibility, ownership, and choices is totally blocked down yonder.

Shame is the thick cocoon which keeps us from being unequivocally responsible for our choices, and the recognition that we have and always have had complete agency over the trajectory of our lives, and how much we fully embrace human life's randomness or mystery, or, in other words, how much we suffer.

Our life's choices are our wings, and when fully and functionally owned, we fly to and from responsibly and freely, and land wherever and whenever smoothly and with complete agency, but when not in ownership of, we crash on land or water as we attempt to fly, all the while blaming the Earth's Magnetic North and our preordained life's trajectory.

We are ALL RESPONSIBLE for every scintilla of hate, compassion, love, indifference, equity, inequity, suffering, and empathy that manifests itself in our human world; therefore, NOT one of us is innocent, and NOT EVER!  ... and that is truly empowering to feel so so deeply, thus know on a cosmic level. ... that any morally positive change in our human world must originate within me as an individual.

The Goddess we all have been looking and longing for is within us, and She is always ready to recreate our human world, as we so image and desire.

At times, our deepest fears masked our true intentions.  When you act or react out of FEAR, you CANNOT have good intentions; fear and good, thus deliberately premeditated, intention, don't and cannot occupy the same space, and this is why you will hear folks at times regurgitate the "I had good intention!" phrase, sincerely, but wrongly nevertheless.

As if "manhood" were not already toxicly constructed, so when you make a soldier out of a "man," he will be a soldier engaged in war mentality and tactics in and out of the conventional realm of the battlefield!

If I must,
I shall reincarnate
As a black hole
To transmute
Into rays of light.

If I must,
I shall reincarnate
As hate
Incarnate
To transmute
Into love
Everlasting
Incarnate.

The only lasting everlastingly weapon against violence is love and its kins: softness, vulnerability, compassion, emphathy, and equity or nonduality that embraces all living things as One.

Reminder: I am a ray of femininity.

Saturday, November 4, 2017

Sublime Mystery

Sublime Mystery
An activist is the echo chamber of her/his own propaganda.

Even when foreign governments are publicly most hostile to each other, they do collaborate to hoodwink, thus fully control, their respective masses.

Truly taking full responsibility for one's choosing - - it is always a choice - - to have entered into an intimate relationship with the other is the most functional compass on one's journey to healing the heart and mind.

Therapy is NOT about fixing us or to make us whole; we never need fixing and are always whole, but to practice, adapt to, to adopt, and internalize a new set of coping skills to effectively deal with certain specific areas of our lives, with the greatest amount of intrinsic and extrinsic rewards possible.
Our less-than-useful set of coping skills are very like the clouds which prevent us from seeing the sun, stars, and moon, but they are always there to be seen once more, once the clouds have dissipated; therefore, the new set of more rewarding coping skills help to facilitate the right conditions for precipitation of some kind, so that we may access the fullest beauty of human life, make healthy space to NOT forbode joy, make allowance for intermittent suffering, and thus take full responsibility for or ownership of our human life.

Therapy is more art and less science; therefore, if you are NOT ready to take the helm as first co-pilot in the drawing process, your canvass of unhealthy coping skills will stay unchallenged and unchanged.

Human life is most unserious, but most beautiful in its complete, and sublime mystery.

Sunday, October 29, 2017

Nymphs & "Black" Magic of Womanhood

Nymphs & "Black" Magic of Womanhood
When you jump head first into anything, especially an intimate relationship, you will suffer a concussion immediately, and the rest of your actions will lack any aforethought and wisdom.

An "activist" is essentially a most clever and glib someone who wants, needs you to trade in one set of masters for another, to his/her own benefit; it's very like voting in any election.

To bathe in her silver creek, and in exchange for helping to facilitate the right conditions for her snowy precipitation, Helen of Brooklyn allows me to dip my short and skinny hose in her brook of silver rainfall to reach my "little death."

The arts, inevitably and unnaturally, serves the state, to a large extent.

I used to live in abject fear of being found out a total fraud of a human being, who was unable to live up to any of society's expectations.

Anytime you otherize folks, you either make them superior or inferior to you and your in-group.

Drawing one's very next breath is the only essential thing in a human being's life; everything else we have learned from society to place a value on where none is, should, and need be.

May your self-love grows exponentially with every passing day, week, month, year, decade, and century to come!

Wholly accepting the other as IS is the most important overture to lasting friendship.

Folks of color shifting responsibility to European colonists, as if "White" folks invented tribalism, fear of the other, and/or existential angst, for every ills perpetrated by their "race" is very like sexual predators shifting their responsibility to their victims and survivors of such violent predations.
One subgroup shifts the responsibility to "White" supremacy and privilege, while the other to the sorcery, nymph, "Black" magic of womanhood, which propels men to predate upon women against the men's will and better judgement!
The "What was she wearing?" or "Did she go to his hotel room or home alone at such time or other?," or "Did she acquiesce to his 'seduction,' 'charm,' or 'affability,' or fight him back to the possible death of her," I equate with "How uneducated, poor, lowly-privileged, marginalized, or disenfranchised are the perpetrators?"
Those "get-out-of-jail" cards are pulled almost reflexively, one may say.
The insidious construct of privilege, in general, whether low, medium, or high, makes liars, beggarded of courage and individuation from one's inherited tribe of us all!

Grappling daily, thus long-term, with anger is shame turned inside-outly!
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Thursday, October 19, 2017

Enablers & Fake News

Enablers & Fake News
"Fake news" media is thee ultimate redundancy!

My feminine side centers me; thus, allowing me to stay home in or to easily come back home to my body.

For our system of privilege to function, thus continue to propagate, folks of same stratas, especially the upper and middle ones, must enable each other in all the insidious ways imaginable.

Every day that one continues to live a life retrograde to the soul, one is precipitating the final curtain of this lifetime.

When one of the highly-privileged gets in serious trouble with the law, merely and only because the same offense has been perpetrated too many times and then made public, members of their class get very fearful that the whole system might be getting unglued or undone completely, and that is why they always make sure to protect and enable each other at all costs, or what is the point of being highly-privileged, then?

Enabling, carte blanche to evade the law, hubris which incapacitates or atrophies the muscles of empathy are at the very heart of our construct of privilege.

Being always too busy professionally or/and personally leaves one absolutely NO time, leisurely or not, to learn, practice, and internalize a new, beneficial patterned way of living.

Some women, in an unwise attempt to counter misogyny, adopt an insidious brand of misandry, in which they know essentially that they are heterosexual, but are unable to be truly vulnerable with any man, and also have subscribed to a sisterhood of the unhealed broken-hearted.

The very same character flaws, like NOT taking "no" for an answer and NOT being able to empathize with the other, which are needed to make folks "successful" in business, are present in serial rapists and other sexual offenders.

Cheating, in an intimate relationship, essentially is about withholding most important information from the other involved with; thus, an insidiously passive-aggressive behavior which puts the other at great health risks, especially with all the incurable STSs of today.

Neither Hades, nor man can ever dissever a mother's bond with her child!

Pro-choice is NOT ever the same as pro-abortion; NOT one woman alive would be glad, happy to have an abortion; what she wants is the legal right and privilege to choose for herself whether to safely undergo such a procedure if need be.

A pro-choice person may be pro-life; the two are NOT contradictory at all.

The self-proclaimed prophets within the lgbtq community on the far-left are hounding Ms. Caitlyn Jenner, for she is "White," rich, and republican.

The "fake news" media is an insidious propaganda machine for the one-percenters, for it glorifies their lives, while it stigmatizes the lives of the poor.

Monday, October 9, 2017

A Mendacious Jailer

A Mendacious Jailer
If you are NOT a millionaire, but are only making above minimum wage, you should still spend very like you are making minimum wage or close to it, at the very least, for it is so easy, and made enticing by the materialistic culture propagated by duplicitous marketing, to find yourself living well above your means; thus, becoming a slave of your own making.

How cosmic responsibility and freedom are interwoven or fused: your cosmic responsibility is to be free (unencumbered by any human construct or external forces/identities), as only one who is insignificant in the cosmos, and immortal as energy can be sublimely thus.

Fear is a mendacious jailer, who surreptitiously robs one of cosmic freedom, by hoodwinking one into believing that randomness is ill-suited for human life.

As a neurodivergent, most of my lenses to perceive the outside world are gray.

I'm neurodivergent; therefore, I am nonlinear.

Reminder: I am a miracle.

Below-averagely endowed in sexual prowess and lowly-privileged in our human world, I should NOT be a likely prospect for any woman's honey-daddy, but everything under the crossed or favorable stars is relative.

This land is NOT my land; this land is NOT your land; this land is NOT their land; this land is solely, just maybe, and certainly for a privileged, blessed time, OUR land.

Gray areas truly far outnumber the combined totals of black and white ones, when one practices the recognizing and reining in one's implicit biases.

The doing, instead of just being, seeks to deny the mystery which life is always and eternally.

Being is the eternal and sublime silence and randomness, while doing is incessant noises of the human ego or false self, in fearing to be insignificant.

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Her Fertile Heart

Her Fertile Heart
A flower grows there
Inviting birds and bees
To her most fertile heart.

A symphony of smiles
Conducted by her lips major
First violinist bow's receptive.

Crown of vulnerability
With robe of equity
Harmonize with her
Emphathetic actions.

A rhetorical: Does a nation, which sends its citizens to kill and be killed to "defend" its illusory separateness, political ideologies, sovereignty, or national/international/tribal interests, have an undiagnosed, untreated mental illness?

When folks are not really ready to take the next step or steps along their journey, up from their rabbit hole in most cases, they will be standing knee-deep in the ocean, and ask or beg you for salt water.

Some folks possess no gray lense to perceive others and, of course, themselves.

Helen of Brooklyn recently asked me, rhetorically I believe, "Why did you put me out like that?"
On her part, she failed to realize that we did NOT live together, subsequently my apartment, I alone pay the bills to live and store my belongings there, for a privileged time.
On my part, I failed to show, use any forbearance in not giving her keys to my small apartment, as if it were a totally free motel room for her conveniences, and also not treating her as if she were my financial and emotional dependent.
But, we were true codependents, in so many mirrored ways.
I did NOT put her out of my small apartment, but merely did in deeds sever a few codependent strings!

In my personal experiences, it takes at least five years for any fruits of a long-term, substantial change in a human being to ripen, thus be viable for consumption as final and tangible proof of a long, and arduous series of farming seasons.

Folks will never act differently because of the heartaches from any failed relationship, but will do so only when the lessons have been understood, put to practice in daily life, thus internalized as an almost-like new DNA.

Some people truly believe that they are sacrificing themselves for their children, country, or an ideology/philosophy, but those things merely serve as a circular, opaque wall to hide behind, instead of living courageously with unambiguous ownership of their comic responsibility and freedom.

Myth: free press
The human construct of privilege circumvents any and all attempts by any courageous, moral journalist to be "free" in the context of journalism.

Sunday, October 1, 2017

In Celebration of Womanhood

In Celebration of Womanhood
You can wish upon her
Day and night, unlike the stars.
She nourishes the living
And welcomes back home
The eternal bodies of the dead.
Give her nine months only
And she will deliver a small miracle.
She is never retrograde
To manhood naturally,
Unnaturally promulgate men thus.
Most egalitarian
Like the queen bee,
And most vital is she to
Continuation of human life.
Though patriarchy cages her
By bestowing higher privileges
At birth on all men,
She still finds her wings of vulnerability
To soar with compassionate heart.
She is mother to all men
And lays her healing hands
On their bruised male ego.

Gratefulness is thee sublime salve, which transmutes the prison's cell of one's insidious self-absorption and shame.

Gratefulness is the blessed portal to self-contentment or self-acceptance.

Self-healing is prayer in action, and not mere invocation.

Folks, who are always keeping busy or doing things, anything to stay most busy like birds building nests and foraging, and they can never be by their lonesome selves, unless they are nursing a hangover from their favorite self-medication(s), are avoiding themselves, and are locked into their own heads, literally constructing and living in their own unreality, for fear of not knowing how to forgive themselves for their human frailties or imperfections, and move forward in life with self-compassion, self-acceptance, and vulnerability.

Mental illness limbo is a most slow and painful death, in which you clearly know deep down the means to that terrible end: suicide at your own hands or a horrid death born out the physical illnesses from the untreated mental one.

Wednesday, September 27, 2017

To Look Within or Without

To Look Within or Without
When you cannot tell folks - -primarily because their internalized shame is always persuading them to look without - - to look within and always within for the answers to life's events, or the acceptance of its many mysteries, you just validate them, while also shining a light down their rabbit hole, so they can hopefully discern in time, that the only true or long-term way out is, and has always been to look within themselves.

Glibness: Sometimes you can subtly suggest the building blocks for a fib to another to lay the springe but of a faulty foundation, in their hubristic attempt to dupe you, then sit back gleefully with a preordained, thus grand-masterful checkmate.

The young Dr. Y. and Dr. (... I truly forgot his name, for my depression and anxiety symptoms must have been - -I know so - - so severe at the time I started behavioral therapy with him - - really saved my life the last time, a few years ago now, when I scraped bottom so close to Hades' depth, due to my mental illness's severity of symptoms; I am most grateful to the both for their ingenuity.

I have knowingly welcomed a Trojan horse, and I am now linear, also.

Mental illness is most cunning: it loses control of itself, in fearing to not be always in total control.

Mental illness is most cunning: it creates a parallel unreality for its host, where the host is sovereign, but all the while its host is most deceived, in truth or reality.

A rhetorical: If most are linear, and one is not by default of a mental illness, then should it follow that one is considered retrograde, naturally?

Sunday, September 24, 2017

Sublime Instruments & Sacred Elves

Sublime Instruments & Sacred Elves
Musicians are the sublime instruments of Goddess's gift of music to deliver, and therapists, who help listeners to truly enjoy said boon precious, are the sacred elves.

Gratefulness:  Dr. C. and Dr. T., two ingenious mental health professionals, twicely saved my life sacred, when I had fallen into some of the lowest levels of an inferno of darkness and clouds; I am humbly grateful to both, for providing the ladder up, past Cerberus, from Hades.

An intimate relationship may, well quite often, start out as a matter of art and cunning, but to be functional, it requires truly more matter, and way less art.

The untreated, long-term symptoms of a severe mental illness makes some feel most "clever" and silver-tongued, but it is really the illness itself that is most guileful in its distortion and warping of reality.

I am truly grateful for the many times that I scraped bottom with my mental illness, instead of just lingering in perpetual limbo of its severe symptoms, for the limbo on one end-of-spectrum allows for some to remain quite functional in their daily lives; therefore, duping the hosts into believing that they really don't need professional help or can postpone it indefinitely, and on another end-of-spectrum only offers the hosts two clear choices: to commit suicide, or to truly seek professional help on the long-term journey of hopefully allaying some of the symptoms' severity with psychotropics and behavioral therapy or the learning of new coping skills.

Saturday, September 23, 2017

Dissents & Revolts

Dissents & RevoltsHelen of Brooklyn can apologize on cue, and retract it on impulse.

Do social folks live longer on average, because society reinforces positively their extroverted behavior, or are there simply inherently "healthy" benefits to being social?

Folks with lots of money or higher privileges avoid, disproportionately compared to the masses, getting in trouble with the law, not because they are more law-abiding or moral, but because society makes pernicious allowances, or has set up inherent loopholes in the Justice system, for their illegal misdeeds, in deeds.

In essence, prison is not set up to rehabilitate or instill ghastly fear in the hardened criminal and criminally insane, but to truly instill ghastly fear of the law in the masses, specifically to minimize the likelihood of dissents and revolts against any and all governments, the one-percenters, or the status quo.

The most potent tools of manipulation by governments are prisons and the created fear of scarcity.

Marriage is a most outdated human construct, which has fully run its essential usefulness, since women are no longer legally men's properties when taken as brides, and science has made it possible for both sexes to live well into their seventies in fairly good health, but continues to be propped up by governments, and to a much lesser extent religion, to essentially weed out, through stigmas and excessive adherence to rules/formalities, those who won't fully abide by their linear order.

Marriage has been supplanted by divorce, to align with the longer life expectancies of both sexes, afforded by new developments in wellness science.

Our most unwarranted, ghastly fear and denial of death makes Typhons, with hubrises that brush against the stars, of us all.

To accept fully the inevitability of death is to embrace our cosmic insignificance and immortality as energy.

Thursday, September 21, 2017

Thought, Emotion, & Behavior

Thought, Emotion, & Behavior
Law against licensed medical doctors performing euthanasia, upon request by their patients at any stage of their long-term illness, makes a total mockery of their Hippocratic Oath!

Health insurance companies officially and legally involved in healthcare for profit makes a mockery of the sacredness of human life.

H.O.B. to her A.T.M.,
"Fill all my
Emotional crevices
With material things
To make me happy
And whole, Daddy."

As thoughts inevitably translate into palpable emotions, and emotions inevitably transform into behavior in all of us, human beings, at times I can read between the three intersecting lines of some folks, who would rather remain as opaque as possible.

If, when you were not a mare with a ruptured hock, you could not unselfishly keep your jockey saddled up for the joy ride, then what of now?

Give me music, or give me death!

I can't expect folks who don't aim for an equitable playing field to respect me, especially those who don't even respect themselves, but I just want, need them to be indifferent about me; therefore, I keep a long physical and emotional distance from them, and henceforth will go to great lengths to assert my personal/professional space as a sentient being.

Myth: the separation of church and state.
The two complement each other most well, although the state has way more influence over the church.
The state needs the church and its teachings to bamboozle or hoodwink the masses into abject subservience.

To the preacher: sacrificial love only applies to prophets, for they need not the other to reciprocate.

One, who claims to be a prophet, is a clever sociopath, who pretends to be a humanitarian.

What do you call a self-proclaimed prophet?
An activist.

Reminder: I am insignificant and immortal.

Myth: The U.S. Democratic and Republican Party, or for that matter any and all political parties, are not in cahoots to manipulate external powers or privileges, at the expense and duping of the masses.

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Dissociation & Paranoia

Dissociation & Paranoia
The only true human need is the breath; everything else is want; even good health.

Some men are so misogynistic that they should only be intimate with other men, but their learned homophobia prevents them from enjoying such intimately sexual company.

The end consequences of homophobia coupled with misogyny are so insidiously toxic that some men can never have any true intimacy with members of either sex.

We so want to be "normal" or very like the rest of them that we are most quick to place the full blame on those involved in a dysfunctional relationship with; therefore, denying the fact that we are equally responsible in our own codependency and other dysfunctions.

"Add or give to me
To make me
A whole,"
Beckoned she.

"Take or subtract from me
To make me
A whole,"
Whispered I.

Reminder: I am a miracle.

Suicide may be the most talked-about and obvious baneful consequence of untreated mental illness, specifically with long-term therapy and psychotropics, but others less talked-about are a total dissociation from the symptoms of the illness, paranoia due to the insurmountable amount of stress brought forth by lack of coping skills and the brain's chemical imbalance, and all the other stress-related short-term and long-term physical ailments.

Some, NOT all, suicides are completed, or even attempted, by folks in moments of lucidity, for they've come to the sobering realization that being in mental illness limbo - - the daily physical and mental aches of it all, not to mention the stigma and shame associated with living with the illness for those who have not yet found ways to transcend the two - - is way too painful to continue to bear for the rest of their lives.
I don't want to be against ANY thing in life, including suicide; what I am for is always moral choices, clear-cut or not, but for people to know that they have many moral ways to continue living or not to, for the cosmic responsibility and freedom is inherent and within, and never without or in the manipulative hands of society, government, or religion.
We, as a society - - in a so-called civilized period of human history - - don't allow doctors - - it is in fact illegal, with severe consequences - - to practice euthanasia or to help folks, even with widely "acceptable" life-ending or terminal diseases, or to assist them in choosing to painlessly end their lives, so suicide is and should always be the other viable option for folks to seriously weigh in, whenever they see fit to.
I remember reading in my early thirties, in one of the Jewish, Nobel Prize winner, author Isaac Bashevis Singer's books, about Singer's most cogent discernment and pronounment on suicide, and I paraphrase him here, if I may with such a giant of literature:
To take Goddess's greatest gift, life, and to tell Her, "Here, take it back!" is no act of cowardice, but of great courage.
I may add, of truly exercising one's inherently cosmic responsibility and freedom.
Also, those, who want to have power-over others, want us to be totally hobbled and most circumspect by a dire and irrational fear of death in general, so that they can manipulate us into living and suffering inhumanely under their profitable and bloody hands, for fear of the "undiscovered country from whose bourn//No traveler returns...," as Shakespeare sublimely refers to it in "Hamlet."